— Hunter S. Thompson (via clumsiest)
So I’m completely dead on the inside for a week now.
I think ‘this is so annoying’. I think ‘I hate this, I want my emotions back, even if they are overwhelming me’. I think ‘I should be angry at this’.
But I don’t feel anything of that.
In winter nobody cares, but now that the weather gets brighter and warmer there are so many things to be done! fun to have! places to go!
My free time is limited and I can’t believe that I only want to waste the best days in bed.
For example, I had wanted to get fit for summer (and in general), simply to feel good, for myself - and now, although I know better, I just can’t believe that this ‘summer’ will actually come. Sounds more like a myth to me. Time doesn’t pass.
But it does. And I’m running out of time.
I’ve been a lot with other people - people I like - for the past week, too. I think that’s good. No complete isolation yet.
Please please please please let this pass and not stay with me I’m actually scared somewhere even if I can’t feel it but I think that I think that I am please I don’t want to end up this way
This is really fucking important because people are made to feel as though there is something wrong with them and that isn’t going to stop as long as money is involved it pisses me off so much